Yeah, back in English (not totally uninspired by this but also because I feel a bit dark and English seems to be better for this) felling extremely angry at the world in general ... this has been a very very bad week, I really don't know how guys like Rui (for example) seem to be oh so productive so active, so undead, so unsleept, and while this might seem like heart felt jealously IT ISN'T , it's just the realization of what I strive but apparently fail miserably at, the best thing I can do is play XBOX till my ego realizes that winning at Xbox games is equivalent to ... not a damn thing ... then I usually get angry at the amount of time I've just wasted saving the world, being a freaking football hero or whatever game is my Xbox is playing ... jezzzus.
Having said this, my wonderful day began with an early trip to Portalegre (again) because I just don't believe in miracles and have this delusion that I must always take matters into my own hands (in this case it's actually true), and had a nice hall conversation about another solo driven project that is on a lot of people's agenda (mind you, they want to know WHEN it's done, not how, where, with what difficulties, how do I feel not to having anyone to turn to for help, no, a boss's one and only answer is .. Is it done yet? ). The trip went ok, I don't seem to be getting better at actually making conversation, or having a decent talk, or communicating at all, and that might explain why Targa's customer care (not) service is giving me a very very hard time.
My computer's disk (I think) has decided to die slowly, but in a very mysterious way ... in a nutshell he started taking 3 minutes just to get to the XP logo part of the Boot, and that's just not normal, he took ages to be quickly formatted and most recently he decided he's a shy individual and plays peek-a-boo with my BIOS ... checkdisk? Reports nothing, and that has been used by the Targa people to justify the torture they have been giving me ... that, and their apparent lack of hearing or at least logical thought .... I told them 100000 times that the disk is very slowly booting and that it takes ages just to get to the XP Logo, and they said "Ok, go to MSCONFIG and disable all starting programs" ... seems logical? My disk issue starts way before rogue programs start messing with Windows, but did they accept that fact... no, of course not, you must do as we say .. and so I did. Next step? Ok, restore your entire system, sure, fine, why not, live happy, 30m just to quick format the partition and a nice XP Home Edition is booting ... slowly, very calmly ... just about to the point where it shoots out a blue screen saying KERNEL_INPAGE_ERROR .. and that's when my BIOS actually sees my disk, and so I call again and explain the situation, and I say "sometimes" my BIOS doesn't even recognizes my disk ... to that they answer "If you say your BIOS doesn't see your disk HOW COME YOU INSTALLED WINDOWS XP, you stupid person" ... "sometimes" is not a word, more of a sound small animal's intestines produce ..... AGAIN I CALL and explain things, and again a wonder solution, "Upgrade your BIOS" .... ok, I will, but explain this, I have a computer that works for 6 months, all of a sudden the disk goes mental and upgrading my BIOS should work that one out? ... "Upgrade your BIOS, please" ... and so I try to get the damn upgrade, only to realize ... I can't, my network connection went Line Up Protocol Down on me .... great, let's call another Customer Care line .... and then another because I'm not a normal customer, and then another because they gave me the wrong number .... and then it's "please call back sir, our computer system is sort of down" ... I was angry, I am angry, I want to do bad things in general, I wanted to be over, I want to get out, but I can't, can I, do as everyone else and deal with it ... well, I'm having a bad time doing it, I have school projects doing a OINO (Once In Never Out) stack, my (almost) eternal project at BlackOrange getting ready to be extended, and my day job is ready to implode one of these days ... uh, did I say I'm (not) taking driving lessons and that my learning license is nearing it's expiry date ... Foto100Nome is not going anywhere, my brain is filled with ideas that I really want to put to practice and the fog is thickening .... and I seem to need to sleep between 7 and 8 hours every day, so that's one more nail on the productivity coffin .....
And here I am, complaining about things in my blog ... how bad is this ? A bit, I guess, but given the specific traffic I get, maybe not too bad, and at least I can let go a bit ... even if it's bad for one's image :) ... I'm heading to bed now ... tomorrow will be a new day, and maybe I'll talk about why I'm missing a chance to go to Denmark for Reboot and to meet these guys ... not that I should need to got that far :), but I'm going somewhere else, and with friends, the few (but great one's ) I end up having :) ... bye bye